Heavy and Light

 

“Our hearts are heavy and light. We laugh, we scream, we sing. Our hearts are heavy and light.”

Today I cried. I don’t mean a little sorry for myself cry, or a banged my toe on the door cry.
I cried like I’ve been waiting to cry for months.
I cried because my head hurt and my heart hurt and because sometimes if you don’t cry you will scream. If you don’t scream you’ll explode.
I cried because I’d run out of other things to do.
I cried because something has finished and something has started and I don’t know how to feel about it all.

Relationships are a living, breathing entity. That’s why when a good one comes into your life you feel renewed and excited and energetic. When a bad one happens you feel like you’ve been tangled up in weeds, or like you’re drowning. Like everything that’s alive, a relationship can die. When this happens you go into mourning, look back on that time and reflect.

To JP, KH, PM, JH and all my other friends dealing with relationships in all their forms: good, bad, newborn and dying. Attending weddings and funerals. Here’s to you…

Here’s to the broken-hearted. To the girl who has been dumped, to the boy who feels used, to the couple that can’t be together, to the man who feels guilty, to the woman who cries.

Here’s to the lonely. To the moments when the room is full but you’re still on your own, when you’ve been looking for something and can’t find it, to the boy who teases her because he doesn’t know how to tell her he likes her.

Here’s to the depressed. To the colleague that cries when you ask if she’s ok, to the friend that keeps it all inside, to sitting at home on the sofa and eating all the snacks in the house.

Here’s to the ones who are trying their best.

Here’s to the superheroes.

Here’s to getting up in the morning, to stepping out of the door, to making that call, to taking her hand.

Here’s to fighting the good fight every day.

Here’s to the music makers and the storytellers.

Here’s to hope.

Here’s to new beginnings.

Here’s to holding your chin up high.

 

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